UGH.
Last night, I got to play with my band. I was ok while I was there. The music sounded great. We all picked a few songs we really wanted to learn, or perfect before I go. Why? I don't know. It's probably doubtful we'll play anywhere before then, though we're going to try. As I said, it was so enjoyable. As I walked out the door, a wave of sadness swept over me. I had to stop at the grocery store (about 10:45p.m.) before going home, and as I walked the aisles, I was dragging my feet, looking through tear filled eyes at the frozen orange juice, the special K bars, the baby wipes...
My friend Emilee yesterday said, "your girls are going to be fine. You won't though. You are kind of passive and will have a hard time making friends I bet. You won't just call and invite yourself to something. Women will have their own friendships and I bet it's hard for you to feel a part of that for a long time."
UGH.
Maddie's cute friends were over yesterday. One of my favorites, Jeffrey, kept saying, "please don't move. I have been so sad thinking about this." He looked so sad and said he had to ask me for himself, because he didn't believe her.
UGH.
Misty came over yesterday. No more seeing her whenever I want, borrowing food, exchanging kids' clothes. No more sending my kids over to play Beatles Rock Band. No more hugs from Elle or Sydney sleepovers with Haley and Paige and Christian. She has been part of that family, especially when I was sick with Kate. Sydney loves their home.
OK. I have to stop this, because I'm crying right now. And it's only 7:36a.m.
Have a good one.
4 comments:
Stop it!!!
Well, I guess I'll get my daily Erin-is-moving cry out of the way first thing.
So.....sad.....can't.....stop.....crying.....
Anyway, the verification word is awesome today:
sisteren
The bretheren have lots of meetings. So do the sisteren.
It's actually a word we've used jokingly in our family for years.
Sisteren! Haha. That cheers me up. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Stop it!
It's going to be awesome and we will miss you incredibly , but it's just the next chapter of the Bret and Erin show......
YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS
THat's my lecture....now I'm crying, just thinking about the hole you are going to leave.
We love you, Nennin. Life will be so different without the Blakes up the street from us. Yes, we'll all survive but it's gonna suck, too!! There I said it. :{ Still love you, though.
That didn't make me depressed or anything....
UGH.
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