Ephiphany

6 weeks left. I had an epiphany at the doc's office this morning. I was drinking the new orange glucose drink, which they told me was 2xs more sugar than the last one (burned like, I don't know, whiskey? going down my throat) and saying over and over.."don't throw up. Keep this down. You can do this. This is yummy. You are loving this drink. Whoa, go back down there big orange.."
I had an epiphany. This is the last unpleasant thing I am going to focus on in this pregnancy. Everything from here on out, is all about how happy I am that in only 6 weeks, I will have my own Baby Kate to share with my family. I will get to smell her, rub her hair, stare at her, cup-o-bum her little bum, kiss her forehead, take naps with her.. I am going to realize that although this pregnancy was really hard on me from the get go, not any more. I've made it. At 39, I made it through one last pregnancy. I can see the finish line. I can even handle it if the results of today are that I do have gest. diabetes for sure and I have to keep going with this diet. The positive? I am learning to eat better than I ever have. Now I just crave a bite of a shake or a handful of fries, and don't want any more even if I could. I am not gaining much weight. I feel like I'm more all baby now than all chub all over.
I am going to call my friends and have a one-day paint the room party. They all said they want to come up and I'll make some good food and it will be fun. I am going to go buy a fuzzy pink blanket....or go to Kid to Kid which always has lots of baby clothes that look brand new. It's more fun for me to buy there than buying brand new. I'll start looking at car seats and port-a-cribs. It's all good. How happy am I that I have been able to carry this baby this long. I have had so many friends have tragedies and problems and even with my setbacks this time, I have a healthy little girl inside my stomach constantly letting me know she is there and wants to play soccer? lacrosse? someday. I've decided that she will be so polite, always smiling and super smart. She is going to have an English accent too, which will be so fun to listen to since we don't hear that accent very often. She'll be super obedient and a peacemaker. She's also going to have big eyes and a sprinkling of freckles. Kidding about everything except the English accent.
Baby Kate, we are so waiting for you..